It is so great to be back in Bonita Springs, it is hard to describe my happiness level. The first few days were a bit rocky with adjusting to sleeping in a normal bed, having my own bathroom and privacy, but it has been 9 days now and I am OVER THE MOON. Although going home for me meant back to my parents home, versus back to Baltimore, it still meant I was getting closer to the first milestone. 100 days.
I like to think of this journey as a reverse marathon, as someone who has run a marathon myself, I remember each set of about 4.3 miles is how I broke up the race in order to get to the finish line, all in one piece. With that, these past 100 days have been like the last 4.3 miles of the marathon. First, there is excitement (like day 0), just like once you finally reach the finish line. However, the 4 miles leading up to the finish (or in my case following day 0) were so grueling, never knowing what you will feel as you get closer ( or in my case further from) to the finish line, your body basically in complete overdrive, almost as if you have no control over it, and your mind having to positively self-talk and go to a happy place just to get to the next mile marker. Whew. So glad these last or in my case first 4.3 miles are over. Yesterday I felt that chapter closing as I stepped on to an eliptacle machine in my Papa’s private gym (he had it cleared out for me so I could use it) and took a few more steps towards the future. I felt tears run down my face as I breathed in the air, and felt each muscle in my body waking up. It was emotional and liberating all at the same time. Right now I am at about mile 21/22 and it is starting to feel good again, like I am out of the woods, because after mile 18, if you trained right, you just kind of coast. At the 6 month mark, I will be more than coasting, and with high hopes, running towards the future. But for now this is the restorative phase and much like miles 18-22 of the marathon, I am just coasting. Resting, restoring and resetting for the future. Day 100, you never felt so good.
Today I wrote this with all of my immediate family surrounding me with the exception of Sam, who is here in spirit, as my second to none Sister in Law has come for this special occasion along with a few other supporting cast members of the Allie “squad” to celebrate 100 days. I would not have it any other way. I am #blessed.
Lots of Love and Gratitude for All of You et Bon Weekend.
The Best is Yet to Come.